Sean has turned everything from really fucking good… to really fucking bad.
I’m done with this back and forth.
So I was just joking around with him and I said something about him finally being a responsible adult for going to the grocery store, and he called me and says, “what is going on?” And I said, “what’s going on about what?l and he goes, “I’ve been here cooking for us tomorrow and blah blah blah…”
He raised his voice and I told him I would hang up. And I did.
This is not shit people who have only been hanging out for 2 and a half weeks should be going through.
I realized that our personalities really do not mesh.
We were supposed to walk around Washington Park, but I canceled our plans. I told him that I needed to figure out if I still wanted to do this.
It was just too much too soon. And all of our baggage just clashed.
I asked him to bring my things that I left at his house. He brought them.
He had tears in his eyes. As much as I wanted to hold him and kiss him and care, my brain told me that this is going to continue to be an issue.
I told him that if I decide to continue, it won’t be the same. I wouldn’t consider just being with him anymore.
I would continue to date other dudes.
I made plans with Josh in the meantime and I told Sean that I am going through with those plans.
I think he finally left.
I don’t mean to be so unemotional, but I learned from the best… good ol’ Eric!
Like, I can’t put my emotions into anything. That is the one thing I am completely protective over. I’m sorry, but it will be tough to get me to let go of my emotions.
So, I don’t know if I will see Sean tomorrow, or ever again. It does suck because these past few days have been amazing… but I understand now that it will be a back and forth thing if I continue.