Had a coffee date with Chemical Genius Corey… and he was pleasant.

Really good looking. I’d fuck him.

Hopefully he doesn’t drool all over me like past occurrences. Hahaha.

I asked if he wanted to hang out later… not sure what he will say.

But I’m like triple booked. Lol I might not do shit tonight! Who knows…


He’s blinded me… with…

Fucking NMR bitch!!

I noticed that when rotovapping this particular compound, it gets super cold… like abnormally cold.

So I’m not sure if I should mention that to Maxxy baby.

I love me some Max. I am really happy his colonoscopy went well. He seems a little nervous about it.

The crockpot in front of physics is gone….

Reaction is set at a larger scale… I hope to get the click color change. Guess I won’t know til tomorrow.


He talked a lot but it was like.. mmm I could fuck you if you shut the fuck up.

Whip that dick out.

Why don’t guys just do that?

Anyway, we’ll see.

I did find out that I am undoubtedly cross dominant. We played basketball, and I shot with my left hand. He even asked, “are you left handed?”

Nope. I just do everything but write with my left. lol not sure why. Cross dominance!

Cooking crack in the Lab.

Actually, what I did was I took the TCO I synthesized way before, and I combined it with the carbonate that I had left over from last week.

I did this reaction last week… so I knew I was looking for that top spot. So I purified it using the same RF values from last time… and I got the same thing! They came out in the same place.

So I separated the two, put them in their own flasks, and evaporated the solvent.

The top spot is oily. Bottom spot was a solid.

Tomorrow I will NMR then first thing, and then figure out how the tetrazine reaction will go (with help from Maxxy baby! I miss his Russian ass!)

I just saw fatty running for the bus with his fucking fat ass then he saw that I was on it and didnt get on. HAHAHAHAHA πŸ˜‚

The Difference between me and him is I don’t give a fuck where he is or what he’s doing I’m very good at pretending you are not there. seems like he’s not.

By the way he hasn’t Lost any weight at all still got a gut. I didn’t look for too long because I don’t want my fucking corneas to crack butt… I definitely saw an ass that was fatter than mine.

By the way, this is how fat my ass is:

Stop getting stoned and eating Pringle’s fatty!


Lmao. First and foremost, before I say anything…. you typed a fucking essay bro! Who does that… lmfao

Don’t be mad because I didn’t want to talk to you after you drooled on me! Don’t get so mad though! If you drool, bitches are not gonna wanna fuck with you.

I am absolutely a serial dater. Obviously, you’re not getting no dates. Sucks to be you. Problem now is for the new people. My week is taken by the guys I wanna see. So the new people trying to get a Monday here or there are tight. My Saturday’s and Sunday’s are usually open too.

He brought me to Carmen’s for brunch. I was already seeing Sean, who lived right next door. Too much downtown Troy going on!

I take my drink anywhere I don’t feel comfortable with it left. Got a problem with that, you’re probably a Bill Cosby. I honestly wanted to text other people I was gonna hang out with later. To be honest. And I wanted to drink my mimosa. We all know I’m a fucking alcoholic

Tool probably hadn’t gotten laid. Got to date me, forced his nasty drooly kisses on me, then got mad that I wasn’t feeling it.

So like I said, get used to getting ghosted. It will continue to happen because you’re such a rigid bitch!



Me and this dude just laughed for hours after getting stoned in the park and played some drums.

Lol not my type romantically. Or sexually. But I could play drums with him.

Walls and shit rockets. Lmfao.

I haven’t laughed that hard about random shit in a long time.

You body shamed the wall so it just started chucking paint chips.

Lmfao. That was happeningπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‹


Ok… this is my week:

Monday (today): Logan (Drummer boy/NEW)

Tuesday: Rashawn (NEW)

Wednesday: Russell (constant)

Thursday: Normal James (constant)

Friday: Joshua (constant)

Saturday: Dustin (NEW)

Sunday: Randy (NEW)

I might slip Joe in there for an afternoon of drawing and shit. Maybe.



Poor Maxxy baby has to get a colonoscopy tomorrow. So he won’t be in.

Therefore, he is making me repeat the last reaction. He thinks we used too much tetrazine.

So I will have to use like 0.5 equiv of the tetrazine instead of 1:1.

Here’s some of the TLC of the last rxn:

I’ll finish typing this up later as I am Uber busy setting this bitch up.

Never mind, I’m not busy. I’m actually outside twiddling my dick waiting for a rotovap to open up. This rotovap situation is really annoying.

The worst part is when Bilal uses anything. He like puts his shit on it, then goes outside on the phone for hours. We’re all waiting for him to take his done-ass shit off, whatever it is he has it on, and homeboy is in the corner speaking in Turkish.

I hope to Bob that his shit isn’t on the rotovap right now. Niggas be blowin’ mines!

Who left their crockpot in front of the physics department? And why?

What the shit is this shit?!

So, I did like two things today. Set up the reaction, and dried a sample out to use in The DART machine.


So i got some food with Squirly James

When sex is concerned with this man. He is cool, calm and collected.

For a 35 year old, he’s probably the most poised. We fucked for an hour this morning, but it felt not rushed or anything.

Like other mother fuckers that can’t handle my pussy for 15 minutes lmfao. I think there’s a difference between dudes who get ass, and those who don’t.

I mean Russell was a little whaaat on Friday. I already looked dangerous, so I understand.

But yeah!! Here’s normal James’s cat:

I’m tryna be a cat mommy!


God he was boring.

Just your run of the mill bland dude.

But we went swimming. I caught a look at his dick through his boxers. It looked small. Lol.

But whatever. No vibe.

Now I am going seeing James (thank god!) We’re gonna smoke pot, eat food, and watch a murder mystery!


I don’t know why I keep hanging out with Gary. It’s just went someone bails (like Jason) it was like meh, nigga is right down the street.

But his cock is too short. It’s thick, but it’s short. Bitch is gonna buy my ass brunch. That is the point.

Lmfao. No…just stop.

But so, I’m just waiting for James to come back.

I’m going swimming with Matt. He has a beard but doesn’t seem hot. It will be our first time meeting.

Then my man will be back!! Uh huh. Lol my man. But he’s the only mother fucker that understood why I am the way I am… cause he is too!!

He goes, “that dumb idiot could’ve been fucking you once a week. He’s dumb” lmfao.

Suck it bitches!


Joe is cute and in an open relationship with an asexual lesbian.

So he’s allowed to go out of the relationship for sex.

It’s cool to me. He seems ok conversationally. We unfortunately didn’t have that natural connection like Russell and James and I.

But I am willing to try to see him and develop the relationship.

He seemed to really love his girlfriend, so it’s cool. I’m glad they’re open.

Full Sean Post

Ok… I’m just going to compile everything I think about Sean in this one post and then move on to my babes…

So, first meeting Sean, he wanted to take me on a hike which I wasn’t really comfortable with as a first date, so I just changed it up and asked to have a lazy kinda dinner and drinks date.

When I got into his car, I mentioned the Aaron thing because it just happened… I think… I honestly cannot remember completely, no… I think it was the Phil thing…but anyway, so I told him I wasn’t looking for anything serious and that I was dating other people. He said he was fine with that.

So fine, we had dinner and drinks. He talked about how much he loved Troy the entire time, then we walked around some more and went up to the roof of his house. We drank some beer and listened to music.

I pulled him over and gave him a kiss.

God he is probably one of the best kissers I’ve ever locked lips with. I will never deny that!

So I wasn’t planning on seeing him for another two weeks or so, but he would send me pictures of sloop juice bombs (cause I told him I liked that beer) and Palahniuk books…(which I don’t think he actually ever owned because he told me he bought me the book)

he wanted to go swimming and take me to the farmers market and that sounded more exciting than brunch with Gavin…

So we went, and had a super good time. But he told me some stories that should’ve made me pause…

Like how when he was in school he had behavioral issues very early. Like middle school age. He told me that he had to spend an entire year in in school suspension.

He would get into fights and flip over deans and hit his teachers.

FATIMA!! That is a red fucking flag

I decided that I liked him. He was cute, kinda artsy, and easy to talk to.

I saw him again soon after and I the sexual attraction was there. I saw his dick, it was a beauty.

We fooled around a bit, but I had my period so we didn’t go all the way…

We talked about the poly thing during the second date, and I told him that I am poly… or at least trying it out, and that he is not the only person I am dating.

He started to get a little jealous. He said something like, “well you just made out with someone yesterday, we don’t need to make out” and I didn’t give a flying faggot. I said, I’m not forcing you to do anything. We can be friends.

Yet he kisses me under the waterfall.

Anyway, so we hang out again soon after, but we didn’t have sex until last weekend when we went to Bish Bash.

We fucked under the waterfall. That shit was fucking good. Sex was incredible!!

But right after we did that he started to get a little possessive. He kind of started acting like I was his wife or something I know he wasn’t used to having someone with him in the house like sleeping with him and waking up with him and morning sex and all that shit.

But I started to notice that he would try and act a lot smarter than he actually is…

For example… he would obviously look something up on Google and try and act like he knew that information. it was obvious.

Then last weekend we got into a fight about me wanting my PhD and wanting people to call me Dr when I get my PhD. I think he felt like well I would never be able to get my PhD so the fact that this girl is actually able to do it is making me feel some type of way because he told me that from what I said that made him feel like anyone that didn’t have their PhD was trash and that’s not true all I said was when I get that fucking prefix motherfuckers are gonna call me Dr because I worked for it.

To me it was obvious that he had a lot of insecurities he felt some sort of rejection because I would not 100% give myself to him and it’s not me not giving 100% of myself to someone it’s just I can give 1000% to many people and he’ll get 100 someone else will get 100 but I’m just poly as fuck and it took me a long time to figure this out and I know it now.

So because I liked him a lot, I considered being monogamous, but then I actually saw his personality traits; very negative personality traits! he was a hothead. he was controlling. he was possessive. he was clingy and obsessive, that kind of rhymes!

So after his little blowup which she kept trying to tell me that he didn’t blow up he got loud and this motherfucker just gets loud out of nowhere I see a lot of his behavioral issues that he used to have are still there. he is out of his fucking mind!

He was definitely not ready to be with someone like me I am not a person that you can control trust me I’ve had boyfriends that I’ve tried to control me it just doesn’t work you cannot control me because I’m an alpha and though he tried to give off an alpha vibe he’s not a fucking alpha he is A fucking Beta bitch.

He likes to start a lot of fights with people, randomly. He has some type of anger deep seeded type of anger that he cannot let go.

That anger will always be there for him unless he decides to figure out what these insecurity problems are and fix them!

If I allowed him to go any further I believe he would have hit me or laid some type a hand on me.

I’m saying this right here right now if anything were to happen to me that motherfucker did it! He is a grade a psychopath!

I’m just glad I got rid of him and I don’t have to worry about his psychotic tendencies anymore.

So now on every date I go on I was going to tell this person that I am non-monogamous I’m not looking for anything serious if you’re not and I am going to be dating other people no matter what.

If they don’t like it, too fucking bad!

This is my life, who I am, and I won’t be changed or change for no fucking body!

You can call me a slut, a whore, a harlot… I don’t give 18 flying fucks anymore!


Since my Juul died, I had to go all the way downtown… no, I’m not talking lark st downtown, I’m talking capital buildings downtown.

Then when I get there, the fucking bitch decided to go get change for a half hour.

So it was 9, and I was like oh fuck… I may have to text Max to tell him that I will be late…. yeah, I can’t go to work with no nicotine. That’s just not gonna be good.

So finally, I got the fucking juul and got on the bus. I might make it by 10. Hopefully. I think.

So on the agenda today, gonna go practice a little Brazilian Jiu Jitsu with my nerdy friend Bryan… then playing skeetskeet balls with James.

And some fucking chemistry!!

Speaking to James

Now that I’m not drunk, let me explain what others thought of Sean’s psycho ass…

The first time Sean and I met up was on the 7th of July. Today is the 25th… a little more than 2 weeks, and dude went absolutely obsessively psycho.

So James told me from the start… this guy seems possessive… maybe have the convo with him slowly and carefully.

Well, there was no carefully. Homeboy flipped shit when I even talked about sleeping with a trans guy. It didn’t matter who it was… he was jealous.

I should’ve known that he was a psychopath. He told me stories about starting fights in the street then getting his fucking ass whipped.

He has a napoleon complex or something. Lmao. Small man, big ego sorta deal.

But ever since we had sex, he just became possessive as fuck!

he tried to say he wasn’t jealous, he just didn’t want to hear about it…

That’s being jealous.

Whenever I would talk about other people, he would just ignore me… say it was a negative downer. Nah, it’s reality. You need to wake up and smell the coffee.

You were nuts!

He reminded me of Raymond in the fact that he didn’t shower daily, didn’t wear deodorant (which idk who told him that that was ok… I could smell his BO and it wasn’t that great) and I really think he is what got me sick.

White people that have “white pride” or get offended when black people are racist need to fuck off somewhere on an island of their own.

Sean was that kind of weirdo.

He saved me in his phone as chem girl and just because we had little pet names, he thought that that meant that we were in an exclusive relationship.

I will NEVER be in an exclusive relationship EVER again, in my life!

It’s not for me. I need to have different relationships with different people.

But also, people need to see what platonic vs intimate is. Just because we have things in common…but don’t have anything physical… that does not mean anything.

We’re friends.

If sex comes into play…

We’re friends with benefits.

If I like you for more than that…

We’re dating.

If you don’t have a jealous bone in your body, get with your girl! πŸ˜‰