I don’t know why I feel this, but something is just not clicking all the way.
I feel like I’m always the one seeking things out. Saying hi, seeing how you’re doing.
This isn’t sustainable if I don’t feel wanted, or cared about. So if that is the case, I can’t do this anymore.
Take that as a text message dump or whatever. I don’t really want to talk about it in real life.
It was a crapshoot between two guys. I chose the wrong one AS USUAL. Lol
Now, I can’t really right my wrongs, I don’t want the one I should’ve chose to feel like second best. So I gotta let it go.
I’m sure there will be a new hot physics PhD. in the fall coming in that I could hit on. Lol the point is… it has to be physics. Lol it’s weird, I know. But it has to be.