If you’re going to tell me that I should not talk about systematic racism because I need to focus on a different topic, you can go fuck off.

And that’s exactly what happened. I cannot stand white people who think it’s ok to tell black people how the fuck to feel about racism. Until you’ve gone through it systematically, shut the fuck up.

Now of course it’s about me finding someone new, and not about some dumbass shit you said. That I guess is fine. I don’t want to stop my growth because your pencil dick can’t get any. Either way, I’ve been single for two months. It’s about time to get out of this sink hole.

You want to love someone because they love you so much, but when you understand that this person is nothing close to what you want, in zero aspects, cutting it off is the healthy thing to fix especially after that comment. No coming back from that.

And I couldn’t stand how he would look a word up, and use it incorrectly in context. Or however he did it. Nothing he said made sense because he tried to hard to make it sound interesting. The best words are those with effect, not just words placed together to sound good, or whatever the case may be.

“Take faith in your words”. Not even sure what that’s supposed to mean. Faith is a noun. It’s like saying, “take bananas in your thoughts.” Nah.

It took a little for me to realize the rebound. Realize that I was in fact settling. And realize the reasons why. In all actuality, I’d rather be alone then subject myself to that again.

Luckily for him, he’s young, and he can bounce back. He just needs to be more aware with where he’s aiming, and what he’s talking about. But I think he’ll be ok once he educated himself in whatever way he sees fit.

Obviously, I can’t love. Or have something that needs a lot of energy. I have one focus, and one focus only, and that’s achieving my bachelor’s, then my masters, then hopefully PhD or MD. But I want to know about life, and for me, it’s easier looking through science.

We’re almost half way through the semester, and spring break will be my time to vacate! I can’t wait!

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