So this is my third or fourth week in pharmacy. I honestly love it… But… It’s a little catty and tense in there. I also feel as if I’m not going to be able to learn anything in that environment. 

Everytime I want to do something by myself, the pharmacist or the girls are up my ass and don’t allow me. Nigga, I’m a hands-on learner. I have to take the chance of making a small mistake rather than watch you do the right thing a million times. I guess that’s true in all aspects of my life. 

I asked Rocco today how much longer they wanted me to stay in Pharmacy. Of course the nigga said he’ll try and get me back ASAP. 

I’m really not comfortable in Pharmacy. Although I love it. I overheard Chris, my pharmaboss talkin’ all types of illnahnah about the lady who’s spot I’m filling at the moment. She’s on vacation. 

Like why the fuck do people think that that’s ok? And the girls over there are super catty. Maybe it’s me. Maybe I shouldn’t take these things to heart. I really just can’t help but be turned off by that kind of immature behavior.

Tomorrow, I’m going to have a talk with Christopher. Ask him what he feels I should work on… If he thinks it’s worth me staying to train or if I should go back.

I’m not giving up, I’m just rushing myself. 

Btw, I’ve gained the 5 lbs I’ve been forcing myself to. My ass is kinda fat again. I’ve been squatting. It’s gonna get even bigger and better.


University of Missouri, Proving My Point.

Peace to my brothers and sisters in Missouri. I’m appalled that shit like this is happening in this country at this time but I’m not suprised. These things I hear about in the news cause me to feel as if my people will NEVER be looked at as equal in the eyes of white Americans. It’s sad but it’s something I’m learning to live with. I love who I am, I love the color of my skin and if you don’t like that, I feel sorry for you because there’s nothing you can really do about it. I appreciate your honesty though.

At work the other day, this girl was looking up news stories and giving her unasked opinion. She thought the hunger strike was “crazy”. She also said “I understand that they are mad about racist comments but a hunger strike is going to far.”

How the fuck can this white bitch say that she understands that they are mad? Bitch, has anyone tormented you because of the color of your skin. And I think she may have forgotten that I am black because after she said that comment she continued to say “but it’s crazy what they are doing to them.”  White people are always trying to be politically correct.


Oral vs. Sex Sex

I’ve always thought that it was weird that when engaged in sexual activity, I just want to get down to the nitty gritty. When it comes to what I’m getting anyway…

Box eating is an acquired taste among men and women (those who do that; I’ve had a girl). Some men can do it amazingly, and still, I’m not getting completely aquafied from it. I don’t know why but I’m not the only one who feels this way.

There are some girls in the world who’d rather give than receive and just get banged and that’s the camp I’m with. I mean, I’m not going to say no when a man decides to get down there. I’d just rather them get whatever rocks off that they’re getting from the act and brush off and start pumping’ ya heard.

I guess I’m not a foreplay kind of person… although I do appreciate the effort. My message to the box eating guys out there, don’t use up all your energy for that or I’m gonna think you’re fucking wack.